Maybe one decision really can change the rest of your life.
We parted ways, and I never thought it would be the last time.
He drove away, and I couldn’t believe it. That he had blown me off.
The mixed signals.
The past pain making us into people we wish we weren’t;
at least I wish I wasn’t
defined by past pain
past relationships that ended badly..
I want to be a better person
I want to let go of all my anxiety
I want to love with my full heart
I wish I wasn’t so attune to the pain, empathy they call it
to other people’s pain
It haunts me at night
Pain I have caused
Pain others have caused
I see it in their eyes,
I want to take away their pain
I want to love them
I want to love myself
They say love makes the world go round but why do we spend so much time faking it
faking happiness and love and jumping into relationships
What is real and what is make believe
Where do we stand
This wall… is it brick or is it sand
is it wood or is it glass
that will shatter in an instant
if someone takes a leap of faith
Or is it water
that distorts the image of the person on the other side
but is so refreshing to walk through
Who really knows
Why he leaves
When he leaves